My last post apparenty worked, because I have got some feed back.  Most are from people outside of the USA.

Yes, this actually happens here and no, it is not from our current administration.  We found out that we may loose our home in 2005.  It was a long process and we were able to stay in our home for about eight more years.

Yes, it affected our kids in different ways.  I don’t want to say too much here, but it is a very valid question.  One of kids was greatly affected and the County said there would be services available such as counseling. We did have to go that route and the County denied that claim.  That is one probably one of my biggest disappointments.  I feel we were lied to and that they really didn’t care about our mental well being.

Interesting that one of the recommended counseling centers had our formal mayor on the board of directors, decided not to go there.

Yes, it does make you feel jaded and the cards stacked against you.  But, I will say this, you cannot have this ruin your life.  That is why you have to vote and know who your local people are.  You have to move on.  It’s not easy.

xoxo, ~ Susan

Okay, so I’ve been thinking.  Recently, I have been getting a lot of users.  I mean a lot when you don’t have to be a user to read my blog.  From the email addresses, I can see that people are from all over the world.  Besides the United States, I see email addresses from Poland, the U.K. and Canada.  Which, is really fascinating to me.  At first, I thought most of the users were probably spam.  But, that doesn’t make any sense, because I don’t see how any user could do anything weird to my blog.  So, I started thinking about this and realized that maybe people were genuinely curious as to what we went through.  I also know that if you are going through this, you probably do not want to talk about it, especially on any time of blog or forum.  I have had a few people that did comment and I started to email on a different formant to them.  I am done with my saga, it is only personal now and I truly want to help others.  I am not done talking about it, believe me.  But, my story is really over.  But, if you have questions, here’s how my blog works:  you write a comment and I can decide to post it or not.  So, if you have a question and you do not want it posted, just tell me in the post that you do not want it public and ask me your question or tell me your comment.  No worries, I am not going to try to “find you” or look you up.  Why would I?  I have nothing to gain and I have already lost, now it is what I do with what we went through.

Believe me, there is a lot I am not saying.  What I am not saying will either be for a book or be buried in our families history.  Maybe it will just be passed down orally as part of our families story.  I don’t know.  I’m still trying to figure that out.

I do know, that I have a lot of dreams still about 4020.  I have a lot of dreams about loosing my house.  Water is usually in the picture.  It doesn’t ever leave you, that was my last post.  But, I’m not angry or vindictive.  It is what it is.  I have to move on.

I am also pretty sure that attorneys are looking at my blog and/or signing up as a user.  Why not?  It was a friend of mine that is an attorney that advised me to start a blog in the first place.  Same thing goes for you, I will not post if you do not want me to, but feel free to ask me questions.

Do I think my counsel did things correct?  I will only say, I would of done things different.  I was too distraught to not let them take their path and at that time, I felt I did everything I could before hiring them.  But, yes, looking back, I would have asked them to take a different approach.

The politicians involved, well, let’s just say I tell every to vote down to their city council.  Some that made my fate are still on my city council.  You bet I’m involved and vote. That’s were I can make a difference.  After all of these years, I now know people that are running for State positions.  I’ve always been a “behind the scenes” person.  Don’t want to make waves or be in the spot light.

I can say so much more, but enough for tonight!

~Susan